Wednesday, November 23, 2005
Tuesday, November 01, 2005
Tahi-tahi ayam..
and So I got diverted from my "tahi tahi ayam" enthusiam to read up on Neuroanatomy tonight...
by blog-hopping...arrgghh!!!! *pulls out hair*
It's so addictive. A friend tells you about one blog. Then the curious you went to check it out. Low and behold, it's actually very interesting and you spend ages reading it. and of course, the interesting blogger has some friends that were mentioned in the posts. Since, the blogger is interesting, the friends must be interesting as well, rite?? interest piqued...
You check out the links section. uh Oh...got links to the Interesting friends.
*die die die* like a moth to fire, you want to stay away but you just can't. Everytime the site loads, you get a happy feeling inside you, like a kid looking on as the nice lady scoops out ice-cream for her. The more you read, the more piqued you get. Positive feedback is bad for you, you know. *SIGH* In the very very end, you stop struggling and say "heck care!"..and before long, it's now 1.13am and I have yet to read past two pages of Neuromanatomy.
Gawd!! urrggh, wake up girl!! How can you be so weak??
A little voice says," but I am only human."
and I wonder why I get offended when people say that I am the slackest medic.
*wry smile*
It's very dangerous because it's easier to accept a Tag than to prove that it's wrong.
You get comfortable in your comfort zone. cookies, drinks, cheese, remote control all within arm's length. Why move?
"Oi, you lazy dumbass!! move lar.."
Little voice in head, "awww..but i am not a lazy dumbass wor." *hurt*
Makes effort to move...aiya so difficult. after moving, no more food near me and no longer comfortable. how????
Little voice in head, " never mind, just accept the Tag. It's fine. Doesn't matter..They don't really know you, really. really."
And thus, you open another packet of crisps and switch the channel to Sky Sports.
*burp* *scratch scratch* *contented*
All thoughts earlier about changing and being better and avoiding the Tag was buried at the back of the brain. behind ...behind where no one can see it including the Head's owner itself.
So much easier to cheat oneself and to lower one's standards. and the vicious cycle repeats itself again and again in every aspect of one's life. Till, you just become a smelly lump of green Moss.
Okay. End of story. Moral of story: To NOT be a MOSS.
So, to not be a Moss, I must go study neuro now. :)
1.29am. sigh.
by blog-hopping...arrgghh!!!! *pulls out hair*
It's so addictive. A friend tells you about one blog. Then the curious you went to check it out. Low and behold, it's actually very interesting and you spend ages reading it. and of course, the interesting blogger has some friends that were mentioned in the posts. Since, the blogger is interesting, the friends must be interesting as well, rite?? interest piqued...
You check out the links section. uh Oh...got links to the Interesting friends.
*die die die* like a moth to fire, you want to stay away but you just can't. Everytime the site loads, you get a happy feeling inside you, like a kid looking on as the nice lady scoops out ice-cream for her. The more you read, the more piqued you get. Positive feedback is bad for you, you know. *SIGH* In the very very end, you stop struggling and say "heck care!"..and before long, it's now 1.13am and I have yet to read past two pages of Neuromanatomy.
Gawd!! urrggh, wake up girl!! How can you be so weak??
A little voice says," but I am only human."
and I wonder why I get offended when people say that I am the slackest medic.
*wry smile*
It's very dangerous because it's easier to accept a Tag than to prove that it's wrong.
You get comfortable in your comfort zone. cookies, drinks, cheese, remote control all within arm's length. Why move?
"Oi, you lazy dumbass!! move lar.."
Little voice in head, "awww..but i am not a lazy dumbass wor." *hurt*
Makes effort to move...aiya so difficult. after moving, no more food near me and no longer comfortable. how????
Little voice in head, " never mind, just accept the Tag. It's fine. Doesn't matter..They don't really know you, really. really."
And thus, you open another packet of crisps and switch the channel to Sky Sports.
*burp* *scratch scratch* *contented*
All thoughts earlier about changing and being better and avoiding the Tag was buried at the back of the brain. behind ...behind where no one can see it including the Head's owner itself.
So much easier to cheat oneself and to lower one's standards. and the vicious cycle repeats itself again and again in every aspect of one's life. Till, you just become a smelly lump of green Moss.
Okay. End of story. Moral of story: To NOT be a MOSS.
So, to not be a Moss, I must go study neuro now. :)
1.29am. sigh.
Thursday, October 27, 2005
Happy sun-shiny day!
Huge sigh of relief..
My worst week ever has ended finally. I woke up this morning feeling happy, floaty, bubbly and light *GRIN*
I could blame the past horrible week on PMS. I hated myself for the whole of last week. Ugly. Useless. Stupid. A Mess. Confused. Needy. Guilty. *SIGH*
As they say, there's no smoke without fire. I never ever had PMS before. My whole life was just happy or just comfortable throughout. Thank you, you evil evil hormones for making me face my problems and my mess sooner, rather than later.
That said, I've decided and taken action on some things that have been hanging over my head for the past month. My mess was making me yo-yo from feeling really happy to being really confused.
There's now closure and moving on.
*GRIN*
My worst week ever has ended finally. I woke up this morning feeling happy, floaty, bubbly and light *GRIN*
I could blame the past horrible week on PMS. I hated myself for the whole of last week. Ugly. Useless. Stupid. A Mess. Confused. Needy. Guilty. *SIGH*
As they say, there's no smoke without fire. I never ever had PMS before. My whole life was just happy or just comfortable throughout. Thank you, you evil evil hormones for making me face my problems and my mess sooner, rather than later.
That said, I've decided and taken action on some things that have been hanging over my head for the past month. My mess was making me yo-yo from feeling really happy to being really confused.
There's now closure and moving on.
*GRIN*
Wednesday, October 26, 2005
Thursday, October 20, 2005
Of favourite things and Croatia...
I realized that I have not post anything happy in my blog for quite some time. It's not that I am unhappy. I am happy! Wonderfully so! It's just that when you are happy, you feel floaty, laugh too much and just a wee bit lazy to type anything.
Besides, how do you describe happiness?
I'd always imagine happiness to be just like champagne *wink* bubbly, teasing and makes you laugh a lot if you have just a bit too much....well, you can't have champagne All the time to make yourself happy, can you? or Can you? hahaha..
Fortunately, there are some things which makes me happy whenever I look at them. :)like my new potted plant! my giraffe hairband and my wonderful wonderful wonderful room that makes you never ever want to get out from your room!
and of course my trip to Croatia. lovely! *HUGE GRIN*
My roommate :)
My roommate from lack of care :(
Doesn't it just blend in???
Haha, cute too!
*smiles*
My Roooooom!!! the loveliest, most wonderful room in the whole wide world
By the quay in Croatia
Bari, Italy
ooh, I wonder who??!?
Haha, my plant didn't die from that. After I watered it, it sprang up the next day, bright as ever. I am sure that My plant can't be as spineless as That!!! *wink*
and the 3 shadows in the last picture are Kai Er, Yian Nee and Me in that order. We were holding out handbags in oustretched hands hahaha and posing..
Besides, how do you describe happiness?
I'd always imagine happiness to be just like champagne *wink* bubbly, teasing and makes you laugh a lot if you have just a bit too much....well, you can't have champagne All the time to make yourself happy, can you? or Can you? hahaha..
Fortunately, there are some things which makes me happy whenever I look at them. :)like my new potted plant! my giraffe hairband and my wonderful wonderful wonderful room that makes you never ever want to get out from your room!
and of course my trip to Croatia. lovely! *HUGE GRIN*
My roommate :)
My roommate from lack of care :(
Doesn't it just blend in???
Haha, cute too!
*smiles*
My Roooooom!!! the loveliest, most wonderful room in the whole wide world
By the quay in Croatia
Bari, Italy
ooh, I wonder who??!?
Haha, my plant didn't die from that. After I watered it, it sprang up the next day, bright as ever. I am sure that My plant can't be as spineless as That!!! *wink*
and the 3 shadows in the last picture are Kai Er, Yian Nee and Me in that order. We were holding out handbags in oustretched hands hahaha and posing..
Saturday, October 15, 2005
Into uncharted territory...
You make a decision which seems best at one time. Then now that it has already been made and so many things have happened Because of the decision. some good.some bad.
You started to wonder if you have made the right one. If you haven't made the decision, your world will stay exactly where it was. You would know where everything is. You would understand. You would not be experiencing new sensations all the time and wondering if they are good or bad. You would know what to expect if you did this or if you did that. uncertainties..
no one to confide in. no one to reassure you that you have indeed done the right thing and you needn't worry. In this, you can only trust yourself.
but at every bad moment, you feel like giving up. This is not worth it. Is it?
You started to wonder if you have made the right one. If you haven't made the decision, your world will stay exactly where it was. You would know where everything is. You would understand. You would not be experiencing new sensations all the time and wondering if they are good or bad. You would know what to expect if you did this or if you did that. uncertainties..
no one to confide in. no one to reassure you that you have indeed done the right thing and you needn't worry. In this, you can only trust yourself.
but at every bad moment, you feel like giving up. This is not worth it. Is it?
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