Happy, fuzzy, warm picture. *grin*

Happy sun-shiny day!

Huge sigh of relief..

My worst week ever has ended finally. I woke up this morning feeling happy, floaty, bubbly and light *GRIN*

I could blame the past horrible week on PMS. I hated myself for the whole of last week. Ugly. Useless. Stupid. A Mess. Confused. Needy. Guilty. *SIGH*

As they say, there's no smoke without fire. I never ever had PMS before. My whole life was just happy or just comfortable throughout. Thank you, you evil evil hormones for making me face my problems and my mess sooner, rather than later.

That said, I've decided and taken action on some things that have been hanging over my head for the past month. My mess was making me yo-yo from feeling really happy to being really confused.

There's now closure and moving on.

*GRIN*

Conversations

turns your head inside out, funny.

Of favourite things and Croatia...

I realized that I have not post anything happy in my blog for quite some time. It's not that I am unhappy. I am happy! Wonderfully so! It's just that when you are happy, you feel floaty, laugh too much and just a wee bit lazy to type anything.

Besides, how do you describe happiness?
I'd always imagine happiness to be just like champagne *wink* bubbly, teasing and makes you laugh a lot if you have just a bit too much....well, you can't have champagne All the time to make yourself happy, can you? or Can you? hahaha..

Fortunately, there are some things which makes me happy whenever I look at them. :)like my new potted plant! my giraffe hairband and my wonderful wonderful wonderful room that makes you never ever want to get out from your room!

and of course my trip to Croatia. lovely! *HUGE GRIN*


My roommate :)

My roommate from lack of care :(

Doesn't it just blend in???

Haha, cute too!

*smiles*

My Roooooom!!! the loveliest, most wonderful room in the whole wide world

By the quay in Croatia

Bari, Italy

ooh, I wonder who??!?

Haha, my plant didn't die from that. After I watered it, it sprang up the next day, bright as ever. I am sure that My plant can't be as spineless as That!!! *wink*

and the 3 shadows in the last picture are Kai Er, Yian Nee and Me in that order. We were holding out handbags in oustretched hands hahaha and posing..

Into uncharted territory...

You make a decision which seems best at one time. Then now that it has already been made and so many things have happened Because of the decision. some good.some bad.

You started to wonder if you have made the right one. If you haven't made the decision, your world will stay exactly where it was. You would know where everything is. You would understand. You would not be experiencing new sensations all the time and wondering if they are good or bad. You would know what to expect if you did this or if you did that. uncertainties..

no one to confide in. no one to reassure you that you have indeed done the right thing and you needn't worry. In this, you can only trust yourself.

but at every bad moment, you feel like giving up. This is not worth it. Is it?

It's funny how..

you can become close to a particular person.

you find yourself spending most of your time with that person. talking, sharing each other's secrets, hopes, fears, insecurities. joining the latest sport craze. going shopping, scouring for good bargains and stopping in a cafe for a cuppa. travelling, doing all sorts of crazy things, having pure good mindless fun. making jokes, slangs which only the "inside" person would understand. a wink here, an arched eyebrow there, a look that would convey more than words ever would.

there is understanding. a sense of comfort, belonging.

Was....

Suddenly...you stopped talking. you stopped hanging out. you stopped rushing back to that very person with news about your life. you stopped asking the person out and vice versa. Now, when you do meet the person, the conversation would be polite, formal. Empty.

We have become two very different person. You have moved on without keeping me updated and so did I. You didn't say and I didn't feel like prying. and so it just went on like this... for months, years..

at odd moments, the memory of us having fun would magically pop into my mind. *smiles*

the cynical me wonders how many of the friends that I have now will continue being more than casual aquaintances 20 years down the road. *arched eyebrow*