6th day of my holidays...

I am bored.
Iambooooorrreeed.
derob ma i.

(hmmm, maybe writing everything sdrawkcab will make my life interesting..yeah rite..misguided logic)

actually, on thinking back, I asked for it.
I refuse to do anything and everything remotely fun doing.... hmm, maybe...

hey... I don't have to continue this anymore. Malaysian Idol'd here... woohoo!
to liven up this sad specimen's life.

maggie/layping, maggie/layping, maggie/layping, maggie/layping...

simple as that, i AM confused. Should i use my painstakingly chosen English name (maggie) or use the name bestowed upon me by my parents?

option a: maggie

pros:it would definitely avoid awkward situation where I have to enunciate my name slowly again and again, or i'd have to spell it out. Better yet, i don't have to teach ppl to remember my name by: lay as in laying an egg except in my case it's ping pong for ping. sigh... every cute guy that i meet henceforth will then picture a hen and a ping pong when they see me. that's NOT good for my marriage prospects..hmm...no, not at all..

cons:i am betraying my parents hardwork in choosing a nice name for me. i'm sure they pored over tons of alternatives, play around with different names, and finally, FINALLY, after months, narrowing to only one. all that hard work down the drain. i'll also betray my heritage since supposedly lay is given by my grandparents.

option b: lay ping
pros: opposite to the above
cons: opposite to the above

so, all this is my only derivation from the psychological camp after having to face facilitators and peers that couldn't grasp my name. i'm sure people go like
"that's the girl.. what's her name?" or "gadis itu, apa nama?"
"sudah tak ingatlah..tak apa, tak penting.."

sniffle..sniffle.. i'm forgettable...just another nameless face in the crowd..and someday just another name in one of a million tombstones...

evil me....

i know.. i know.. i already had another blog site.
i wanna dump that one! this is prettier and nicer...
didn't i always say that i am fickle..:)