Friday, May 20, 2005

Catches you unaware

Do you ever get moments when you suddenly feel as if you don't know yourself anymore? That you no longer have any idea about what you want, why you are doing what you are doing; all the perceptions, principles, standards that seemed so clear to you just while ago now strikes you as false. You feel disconcerted like having the rug pulled under your feet.

"Wasn't it like this?"

"Why does it feel so weird?"

You take a while to regain your bearings and try to re-understand things that you thought you already understood. You try to re-trace the previous path to reach your previous conclusion but you can't. Something has happened that made you see/sense something new that no matter how hard you try to lie to yourself that previous conclusions are true, They are Not. It's a rude awakening. Things which you assume that were true are actually not. *ice-cold water splashed across your face*

Disconcerted. Disillusioned.

Confused. Yet again.

1 comment:

WitchyLing said...

poor girl, these things happen, if you want to talk..

one thing you definitely know tho, is that you'll always recover, that you'll always regain your balance whenever some event or someone throws you off..

i know you can and you will.. :)