Happy sun-shiny day!

Huge sigh of relief..

My worst week ever has ended finally. I woke up this morning feeling happy, floaty, bubbly and light *GRIN*

I could blame the past horrible week on PMS. I hated myself for the whole of last week. Ugly. Useless. Stupid. A Mess. Confused. Needy. Guilty. *SIGH*

As they say, there's no smoke without fire. I never ever had PMS before. My whole life was just happy or just comfortable throughout. Thank you, you evil evil hormones for making me face my problems and my mess sooner, rather than later.

That said, I've decided and taken action on some things that have been hanging over my head for the past month. My mess was making me yo-yo from feeling really happy to being really confused.

There's now closure and moving on.

*GRIN*

Conversations

turns your head inside out, funny.

Of favourite things and Croatia...

I realized that I have not post anything happy in my blog for quite some time. It's not that I am unhappy. I am happy! Wonderfully so! It's just that when you are happy, you feel floaty, laugh too much and just a wee bit lazy to type anything.

Besides, how do you describe happiness?
I'd always imagine happiness to be just like champagne *wink* bubbly, teasing and makes you laugh a lot if you have just a bit too much....well, you can't have champagne All the time to make yourself happy, can you? or Can you? hahaha..

Fortunately, there are some things which makes me happy whenever I look at them. :)like my new potted plant! my giraffe hairband and my wonderful wonderful wonderful room that makes you never ever want to get out from your room!

and of course my trip to Croatia. lovely! *HUGE GRIN*


My roommate :)

My roommate from lack of care :(

Doesn't it just blend in???

Haha, cute too!

*smiles*

My Roooooom!!! the loveliest, most wonderful room in the whole wide world

By the quay in Croatia

Bari, Italy

ooh, I wonder who??!?

Haha, my plant didn't die from that. After I watered it, it sprang up the next day, bright as ever. I am sure that My plant can't be as spineless as That!!! *wink*

and the 3 shadows in the last picture are Kai Er, Yian Nee and Me in that order. We were holding out handbags in oustretched hands hahaha and posing..

Into uncharted territory...

You make a decision which seems best at one time. Then now that it has already been made and so many things have happened Because of the decision. some good.some bad.

You started to wonder if you have made the right one. If you haven't made the decision, your world will stay exactly where it was. You would know where everything is. You would understand. You would not be experiencing new sensations all the time and wondering if they are good or bad. You would know what to expect if you did this or if you did that. uncertainties..

no one to confide in. no one to reassure you that you have indeed done the right thing and you needn't worry. In this, you can only trust yourself.

but at every bad moment, you feel like giving up. This is not worth it. Is it?

It's funny how..

you can become close to a particular person.

you find yourself spending most of your time with that person. talking, sharing each other's secrets, hopes, fears, insecurities. joining the latest sport craze. going shopping, scouring for good bargains and stopping in a cafe for a cuppa. travelling, doing all sorts of crazy things, having pure good mindless fun. making jokes, slangs which only the "inside" person would understand. a wink here, an arched eyebrow there, a look that would convey more than words ever would.

there is understanding. a sense of comfort, belonging.

Was....

Suddenly...you stopped talking. you stopped hanging out. you stopped rushing back to that very person with news about your life. you stopped asking the person out and vice versa. Now, when you do meet the person, the conversation would be polite, formal. Empty.

We have become two very different person. You have moved on without keeping me updated and so did I. You didn't say and I didn't feel like prying. and so it just went on like this... for months, years..

at odd moments, the memory of us having fun would magically pop into my mind. *smiles*

the cynical me wonders how many of the friends that I have now will continue being more than casual aquaintances 20 years down the road. *arched eyebrow*

*Mad Season*

I feel stupid - but I know it won't last for long
I've been guessing - and I coulda been guessin' wrong
You don't know me now
I kinda thought that you should somehow
Does that whole mad season got ya down?

I feel stupid, but it's something that comes and goes
I've been changin' - I think it's funny how now one knows
We don't talk about the little things that we do without
When that whole mad season comes around

So why you gotta stand there
Looking like the answer now?
It seems to me you'd come around
I need you now
Do you think you can cope?
You figured me out - that I'm lost and I'm hopeless
I'm bleeding and broken, though I've never spoken
I come undone in this mad season

I feel stupid, but I think I been catchin' on
I feel ugly, but I know I still turn you on
You've grown colder now, torn apart, angry, turned around
Will that whole mad season knock you down?

So are you gonna stand there
Are you gonna help me out?
We need to be together now
I need you now
Do you think you can cope?
You figured me out - that I'm lost and I'm hopeless
I'm bleeding and broken, though I've never spoken
I come undone in this mad season

And now I'm cryin'
Isn't that what you want?
I'm tryin' to live my life on my own
But I won't, no,
At times I do believe I am strong
So someone tell me why, why, why
Do I, I, I feel stupid
And I come undone
And I come undone

I need you now
Do you think you can cope?
You figured me out - that I'm lost and I'm hopeless
I'm bleeding and broken though I've never spoken

I need you now
Do you think you can cope?
You figured me out - I'm a child and I'm hopeless
I'm bleeding and broken though I've never spoken
I come undone in this mad season

In this mad season
There's been a mad season
Been a mad season

-Matchbox Twenty-

Back in Cambridge now. back to cobblestones. back to small streets where I can walk everywhere. back to quaint small shops. back to sandwiches, panini, ciabbata, scones & tea. best of all, back to my own little room. *smiles*

Summer was glorious. Things were done, old friends were met, new friends were made, places were explored. experiences are varied and feelings yo-yoed from one end to the other end. Summer felt like a dream and now I have snapped back to reality.

*SMILES*

All things S'porean.

Spent 5 days there and it was AN ABSOLUTE BLAST!!

Food-wise: was glorious! bet you s'poreans didn't get that compliment much, esp fr a penangite at that ;) Haha, they have the weirdest stuff e.g. colourful bread ice-cream, unagi chee cheong fun, durian glutinous rice ball, durian pancakes and durian everything. Not forgetting Katong Laksa *yum* Fusion, fusion all the way and imagination and creativity And package apparently goes a loooong way. Went to NYDC and loved it!! Their desserts e.g. mudpies, funny cakes- B3, Goldmine Cheesecake etc.

To quote Suiseng, I am a glutton. *blush*

Shopping-wise: Ah well, being the glutton that I was I didn't have enough money left over for much shopping. Just bought 3 items..one of them my Superstar!! hahahaha that's my Best buy ever *grin* went to Queensway and browsed through SO many shops and finally found my Superstar! Though now, I am still dreaming about that particular pair of shoes and dress which I didn't buy. ;)

The BEST thing of all is WOMAD!
We just shook our rumps' all night..hahaha the loud, shake-your-boogie music, the live bands and the hot lead singer

Random quotes:

Tip on how to be a girl fr Suiseng: Girls cannot eat faster than their male counterparts and also never to proclaim that they are hungry. It doesn't reflect nicely on them. Trick is to eat until you are quite full before you go on Dates. *rolls eyes*

He is a total MCP! *male chauvinist pig*

that shoes is So AA. *attracting attention*

That person has an AP. *attitude problem*

PH anyone? *public holiday*

hahahaha, So many short-forms for so many common words. People say it, the words are written on notice boards.. everything is shortened! I wonder if it has anything to do with the lack of space in SG. ;)

There are so many stereotypes in Singapore just like every other place except that theirs also extend to the schools. Different schools produce students with a certain look or certain demeanour. I never could understand this whislt I was in Cambridge and everyone is trying to guess everyone else's alma mater. hahaha but being in Singapore and seeing the students in their respective uniforms and such and tons of explaining by Shanci and Alvin, i think i might have an idea. heh.. But the idea that a school will churn out students of a certain, recognizable demenour is quite disturbing to me haha..coming from M'sia.

It was an awesome time, truly ;)

Thanks Shanci esp for bringing me arnd everywhere and of course the bed-sharing ;)mwahs!

Thank you Alvin, Stephanie, Kah Yong, Herman, Heather, Chris!!!